Freeze up....

Sorry it has taken me so long to write another installment of my blog. As I realized that more than two people were reading my blog, it became more difficult to write. All of a sudden the question became – “Is this worthy of writing and posting? Why would a dozen people want to read this?!” It gave me writer’s block; I froze. Which is funny…I have less trouble writing up a speech and giving it to a hundred people. I don’t freeze up when in front of a crowd, but then again, I can SEE the reaction of those people in real time. I can gage their reaction and adjust. You simply can’t do that in written form.
But one thing came to me this morning as I was in the shower. (Yes, some of my best moments of clarity happen either as I lie in bed, wide-awake as usual, in the middle of the night or as I shower!) As I was thinking of the struggles of several of my friends, and formulating some words of encouragement and advice to write to one of them, I realized how easy the words were coming. That’s because I was only thinking about writing directly to them. I wasn’t worried about pleasing them with my words…just about telling them something I thought they needed to hear. When I speak in front of large groups, I’m not so worried about how I sound. I’m more worried that I make the message clear. I know I have something important they need to hear and I don’t care if they like the messenger, just that they understand and respond to the message.
So, bear with me as I blog, sometimes on important issues – sometimes not. Sometimes with a message for you – sometimes just ramblings as I try to work out things in my own head. Some things will be written specifically for a certain set of people, of which you might not belong. Some things might seem like I am living inside your own head. Hopefully when I DO have a message, it will be clear.